[ Current Mood |crushed] [ Current Music | Joe Jonas - Gotta find you ] life - suck big time . maybe i'm cursed ? cursed to have a very bad relationship . yeahh .
maybe it was my mistake at first to not do what he'd asked me to do . but hey , which girl makes the first move ? maybe im thinking the way oldies do , but that's just my way of thinking . another girl went into the story . & she managed to do what he'd asked her to do . then he DUMPED me . & went with that girl . but never did became lovers . the girl was all into him . i was too ! but no . she got him . and i lose him . AT LEAST i wasn't the one who asked him for his number . he got my number & messaged me . that girl asked for his number and messaged him . maybe she was desperate . HECK . that's not my point here . My point here is that , why was i so stupid to surrender easily at that point of time ? why was i so stupid to realise that there was competition going on ? If only i wasn't so .. so .. idk . if only .. exactly 3 months & 2 days has passed after the incident . i thought that i could forget him . yeah , maybe for the first 2 months . but just a month ago .. it seemed as though all my memories were reviving back . Why do i keep thinking of you ? i tried my best to forget you . i tried my best to forget all those things . but no . you just had to bump into me in school when i was at the least bit thinking of you . i did try to smile at you but you were just looking away . im just so stupid to keep thinking of you and keep hoping that you still have those feelings for me , aren't i ?