Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I crave for your attention.
Period cramp stinks. I hate it when i have my period because emotional downfall always happen. I'm never at my best and even the littlest thing can break me. You get what i mean. I can't blog too personal over here so i do it on Twitter. It suck sometimes because there's the character limit, but i just need to let it all out or i'll go berserk.
Two things are killing me right now. Both physically & emotionally. Im dying, metaphorically. There's nothing to look forward to anymore when i wake up each day. Just plain cold treatment and ordinary routine. I can't take it anymore and i can burst and breakdown any moment. I hate it when im clueless of what's wrong but I just want everything to be okay.
But OKAY doesn't exist in reality right now, does it? It only exists when everyone's happy.
I want everything to be Perfect.
Yet again, Perfect exists in fairytale and directed movies. Nothing is perfect.
No words can describe how i want everything to be right now because none of it is as it seems.
My life is screwed hardcore now. Im always in a hustle for most things, adequately thinking too much at once and subsequently dying again, figuratively.
I need time to slow down. I need to plan out things. I need to be disciplined. I need a listening ear. I need an advisor. I need to think one at a time. I need to be strong. I need to stop dying. I need you.
♥You and Me
3:25 PM
