u HURT me .

2010-03-27T15:39:00.003+08:00

"Don't make decisions when you're angry.

Don't make promises when you're happy."

2010-03-27T15:08:00.002+08:00

It's been long since i've updated a proper one.
Apologies to people whom i am supposed to link.
Will link you soon aites!

I'd be lying if i said life's been great.
It hadn't and it's not.
Im just really upset with the way things are right now.
I wish us to be just like before.
Oh boy.
It sucks when you're not emotionally strong. Im serious.

Oh hey, i went to Singapore Radio Awards the other time with Feeqs.
It was awesome \m/ Taufik Batisah is so .. CUTE. And i think Jason Castro needa cut his hair coz it's longer than mine. The muttons were funny, as usual. All the Djs rocked. Me and Feeqs almost got a chance to take pic with Sezairi & Sylvia but we were too.. late. Well yeah.

Im going off to Paranormal Expedition later tonight. 10pm - 3am. Ooh la la. I hope i get to have some fun with Feeqs & Liina without thinking of anything. If i get abducted by aliens, i hope they take me away from Earth. Or kill me or something. The pain would end then. Sigh.

It's been hard for me to breathe properly nowadays. Like there's a blockage in my lungs. Maybe i should go for a checkup. On second thought, nahh.

Aites, gotta go packup now For Later + Sleepover.

I need you.

2010-03-15T19:09:00.000+08:00

I am incredibly awkward and negative. I get attached easily, and i hold on for too long. I don’t like opening up to people. Most 5 year old children can express their feeling better than me. I hide behind my fake smiles. I’m terrified of being hurt. I tend to act older than I am. I’m probably one of the most difficult people you will ever meet. But i can be sweet. I’m a great listener. I’ll guard your secrets with my life. I will never judge you based on your mistakes, and I’ll love you as much as i can. I can be, if you let me, one of the best things in your life.

2010-03-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

2010-03-09T18:28:00.001+08:00

Yeah, how many?

2010-03-08T19:55:00.000+08:00

I feel like crying , so badly :(

2010-03-07T18:38:00.002+08:00

"I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with it ."

3rd Month.

2010-03-04T19:22:00.000+08:00

I NEED SLEEP BADLY! :(

2010-02-27T00:15:00.001+08:00

You're Nothing Short Of My Perfect Everything.

2010-02-26T22:28:00.002+08:00

I’m not experiencing a break up but im crushed still.

Watching to some romantic Love movie together with a tub of Ben & Jerry’s Ice Cream and a box of tissue with Siti would be more than great. We could cry together for different reasons.

Im frustrated. Im angry at myself. Because no one else is at fault except Me. I just need a moment to scream and break down. Im sorry i made a bad impression on her, Love.

I love you.

2010-02-24T13:25:00.000+08:00

2010-02-23T20:22:00.002+08:00

I miss the time when We were at the fish pond area and i was running away from you while you were chasing after me and you hugged me from the back and said " I can only love one and I Love You."

i love you.

2010-02-21T14:51:00.003+08:00

When you asked me What's My Definition Of Love, i answered ~~Deep Affection.~~
But after much thought, i've come to realise that i've answered wrongly.
It took me awhile to realise the obvious.
And now if you were to ask me the same question again,

My definition of Love would be You.

2010-02-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

2010-02-14T14:02:00.002+08:00

Don't think i'll be posting much here.
I've never liked Justin Bieber just that the lyrics to his songs are meaningful.

Oh, Happy Valentines Day! :D

& Happy Chinese New Year too!

Follow me on Tumblr! :)

2010-02-11T20:46:00.001+08:00

I AM SO DEAD.

Coz something happened and only Msha & DEE know. WAHLAO.

I Love You, D.

2010-02-10T17:18:00.001+08:00

You're back!

But i sense awkwardness..

2010-02-10T16:56:00.000+08:00

2010-02-10T15:25:00.003+08:00

I crave for your attention.

Period cramp stinks. I hate it when i have my period because emotional downfall always happen. I'm never at my best and even the littlest thing can break me. You get what i mean. I can't blog too personal over here so i do it on Twitter. It suck sometimes because there's the character limit, but i just need to let it all out or i'll go berserk.

Two things are killing me right now. Both physically & emotionally. Im dying, metaphorically. There's nothing to look forward to anymore when i wake up each day. Just plain cold treatment and ordinary routine. I can't take it anymore and i can burst and breakdown any moment. I hate it when im clueless of what's wrong but I just want everything to be okay.

But OKAY doesn't exist in reality right now, does it? It only exists when everyone's happy.

I want everything to be Perfect.

Yet again, Perfect exists in fairytale and directed movies. Nothing is perfect.

No words can describe how i want everything to be right now because none of it is as it seems.

My life is screwed hardcore now. Im always in a hustle for most things, adequately thinking too much at once and subsequently dying again, figuratively.

I need time to slow down. I need to plan out things. I need to be disciplined. I need a listening ear. I need an advisor. I need to think one at a time. I need to be strong. I need to stop dying. I need you.

:\

2010-02-07T22:05:00.003+08:00

Happy 2nd Month, bby.

Today was fine. Went shopping together with Along & Eimran. EighteenChefs was awesome :) Haven't heard from Love :\ Im finally done with the English presentation! Oh, tomorrow's gonna be a very long day :O

06 feb

2010-02-06T19:04:00.002+08:00

The thought of You just makes me smile.

Plans with Mum and Sis for today is postponed to tomorrow :\ Menstruation cramp is an asshole. My school's such a pain in the ass.

Alright, im off to teach kiddos :O Yes, unbelievable :)

I love you.

2010-02-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

I am who i am;

2010-02-04T21:34:00.002+08:00

Your opinion is neither required nor desired.

Thank God it's Friday tomorrow! School's killing me slowly inside. Never would i wake up to exhaustion not stuck to my brain cells. The truckloads of homework drains me even more. God & I know im in trouble for Cheerleading. I gotta start planning things out before it's too late :\ I swear, getting on my nerves right now, is the last thing any sane person would wanna do.

I've gotta study for Chemistry test & i've got English Powerpoint Presentation due tomorrow. It's about us as a reporter, writing a report based on the song Last Kiss by Pearl Jam. The lyric's sincerely touching! And we named the couple Gavinna Lim Ghey Hong & Marco s/o Polobush. Perfect. I swear it was nice laughing around with my classmates :) Speaking of which, THREE of my classmates asked wether imma Singaporean. One of them even confidently assumed that i wasn't -.-

Oh, we won Tuesday's match against St Mar :D 7-2 ! We're getting closer to Sweden girls! HEH ;P

Sunday's a day to look forward to ;)

Sleep Deprivation

2010-01-31T19:05:00.005+08:00

Case Study: Sleep Deprivation.

Evidence:

FINALLY! After going through tons of obstacles, im done with remixing the cheersongs! First piece, ain't sure wether they'll be fine with it :\ But i'm happy still :) RACHEL!!! Where are you? ^^

Oh bitch, please.

2010-01-30T23:08:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was Happily Special :D

Heh, not forgetting I made a new Minah Name for Hayati :P

Titi Kechyk Star! ;D

Yesterday, i went to school with Amalia , had recess with Siti , went out from school with Dee & Met Love after that. SEE! I can survive..

2010-01-28T21:17:00.002+08:00

"I need you Forever and Always. Especially Right Now."

Never let go.

2010-01-28T19:50:00.010+08:00

Oh Baby,
I know sometimes it's gonna rain. We've fall into this place where you ain't backing down and i ain't backing down, so what do we do now? This Love ain't gonna be perfect. And just how good it's gonna be. We can fuss and we can fight, long as everything's alright between us before we go to sleep. Baby, we're gonna be happy.

School's been difficult . I gotta admit, the homeworks given are uncontrollable. What with
tests, HMT, Cheerleading practices/Choreographing, Floorball training/nationals .. Life in school is undeniably hectic. Apart from that, Life outside is another different story.

We won the match against Holy Innocents :) Victory feels good.. Next Up!, St Mar. I wanna feel Victory again :D Ooh, i smell Sweden, girls! HAHA ;) Go Fight Win!

I've been having snippets of a particular moment in my dreams. It's like, each time i close my eyes, it'll appear immediately for like, say, about a minute? And then i'll suddenly open my eyes after that. I swear they are giving me hardcore heartaches.

Kinda can't wait for tomorrow's parties. It could help take my mind off things for a while i guess. No, i gotta go for a run. Yeah. It's been long.

Im not afraid of how i feel.

2010-01-24T16:37:00.004+08:00

I have a sudden obsession with Off shoulder, one shoulder , toga dresses/ tops. I like :D

I have 3 parties to attend on Friday to which i won't be attending one :\ Is this coming Friday the Hot Date for parties or what? Hmm.

THIS IS SO COOL

I was randomly searching on Facebook and i came across this. I was like "WOAH!"

one year? ♥

2010-01-23T13:31:00.003+08:00

23 January 2010

I swear i didn't remember today till he reminded me :\

Melts*

2010-01-22T22:12:00.004+08:00

Cik Farin's wedding. Though exhausted, we managed to smile for the camera with Haizad Imran! :D

Come here and take off my lipgloss;

2010-01-21T21:01:00.003+08:00

"Don't flatter yourself sweetie. The only fan you have, is the one on your ceiling."

Wasn't in the mood today. Cheerleading practice was hell. No, today was * . Thing is, im not having PMS or anything related to period. Really. But nonetheless, Love's presence lit me up a lil' :)

I sense crankiness taking over me in the next few days. Life's never easy, but sometimes i badly wished it was.

I need you so much closer.

Self appraisal bitch.

2010-01-20T20:36:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's Nationals

"Not the best start of the season today, but the race has just begun. So keep on pushing and we will finish strong together!" - Mr Quek.

Everyone treats this match like, winning a lover's heart. It's like, the pain of losing the match is the same as the pain of losing a lover. Excruciating. Hehh, we start off well, we'll end off well, kay girls! We just got to be better :) Remember top 5/6 = SWEDEN! ;) Let's win our lover's heart!

School's been fine. Just some complications.It'slikeidontgetsomeone'sfullattentionanymorebecauseofsomeone. Urgh.

And fcuk you, to the person who said "Matair Suhana eh? Break sudah." You've got both my middle fingers pointing at you. It's SUHANNA okay. Tak tahu malu -.-

Go Fight Win!

House.

2010-01-18T21:31:00.003+08:00

I never thought this would happen. Someone wants to buy the house. And in a matter of months, i'll be moving out ): There are just too many memories here, around here. It's just sad to have to leave because this is where i grew up )': Where EVERYTHING happened ):

18 January 2010

2010-01-18T20:07:00.002+08:00

, Love♥

OI, If you have a problem with me, come waste your time and find me. Don't have to tell fcuking fake stories that i didn't even write. How the hell can i say YOU COPIED ME , when fact is, i don't fcuking know you? Are you like too guilty already because you really did Copy Me? Or maybe there's just too many people saying you're the most "UNORIGINAL BITCH" they've ever met, that you think im one of them? Please laa, get your facts right first, kay? Even your so called "bestfriend" says you're unoriginal. Why the hell do i wanna talk about someone whom i've ever never spoken to or know about!? -.- You don't make sense, i swear. Wake up, there's just too many people i know bragging about how Unoriginal you are. Maybe they're right. Hah, i don't know! But in my opinion, you just dont have anything interesting to talk about and thus, resulting into this. Plus, you don't make perfect and exact sense at all. Oh, thanks for the fcuking publicity on your unoriginal blog eh. I fcuking appreciate it. It's okay, i don't wish to make you popular :) Use your smaller-than-mine eyes when reading my blog because i do have a message box, simpleton. 8)

School was marvellous just now :P Training was short. If only i could have met Love after that, the day would have been perfect! Tournament's tomorrow! :) Got our jeseys just now and i didn't get 14 because coach couldn't get it ): I got 4 instead ): Siti's 5! HAHA ;) Okay, im loaded with homeworks.

I think im meeting Love tomorrow.

Arrivederci

Stop acting as though you can get all the boys you want coz reality check : You Can't.

2010-01-17T00:40:00.002+08:00

Picture above is random.

I've got the rough idea of how i want everything to be and almost half of the moves ready :) Im left with the songs only. I have a hundred and ten percent effort and commitment put into this. HAHA.

It's been a while since i last updated due to the busy schedule and exhaustion. Currently, reality is Fantabulous! I've been loaded with too many homeworks every single day. And im like, always ready to close my eyes in class. I can't continue doing this :O Even Love has been studying! Ahem.

Today started off with Maths tuition at 10am. I swear i was dreading to wake up but still, i managed to concentrate during tuition :P After lunch, i quickly got to work with the cheer moves :\ And when i was almost done with it, mum decided she wanted to go shopping. Finally! I got my clothes :D I was like so tempted to buy this Paris Hilton wallet coz it was very Vogue, then i saw this ELLE hot pink 3 IN 1 wallet/pouch/bag, i was melting by then! ^^

Urgh, NMBMF, how much more irritating can you be? What's my problem ah? My problem is YOU. What the hell is wrong with you? I don't even know you! So please, stop acting as if you know me. You added me on Facebook, we've never even talked and yet, you're asking what's my problem. Wtf ? I'm not on the TV yet and miraculously, people like you, know me! How cool is that!? -.-

Mmm, kay. I miss Love.

2010-01-11T21:23:00.005+08:00

~~I Feel So Fcuking Useless ):~~

"What will it take to show you I'll be by your side? Boy, I got you and I want to give you what you never had. Boy, everyday I hope to make you a part of my life. Cause you know me and I know you. Boy, your love is where it's at . I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last and be the one that got your back. Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together. And though we both made our mistakes, and some we never wish we made but we'll be okay if we just stay together."

2010-01-11T21:07:00.003+08:00

It sucks to feel this way):
Feeqah told me her Sad ♥ Story during maths lesson just now): I feel ya babe): Not because of whatever you think it is, but because it kinda is happening to me):

School was normal for today. Nothing exciting, just exhausting. Even after school was normal ): Urgh, sucks. I'm lost.

So Who's Your Hero?

2010-01-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

Farhah taught me this! ;) COOL to the maximum.

Must Watch! :D

fuckyeahkissing.tumblr :)

2010-01-09T21:48:00.002+08:00

“I believe in Pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.”

<3

2010-01-09T21:44:00.003+08:00

~~The Taste Of You Lips~~

My week.

2010-01-09T13:49:00.006+08:00

I haven't been updating much >:\

Last Saturday was Cik Farin's wedding at Singapore Art Museum. All of us had to wake up really early to arrive at 10 am forthe Akad Nikah. The kadi was funny and the Bride and Groom were GORGEOUS! :) The decorations were jaw dropping! Real fresh flowers everywhere, very artsy + nature like. Everything was like, romantic blue and white. Like, OMG. There were like 3 places for visitors to choose and sit at. The garden on the left, main hall and the garden on the right. Everything was perfect. Even the food! 3 dfferent types of cheesecakes, truffles, eclairs, Puffs, chocolates, brownies, puddings , cakes .. i can't remember the rest! They catered 18 different kinds of desserts, not including the ones they ordered O.O Everything was finger lickin' good! :D Puteri Wedding Services (i think that's what they're called) is AWESOME \m/

That day made me and Sis closer to Simaa, GG, Cik Ita & Nadya - our TEEN aunts , HEHE. They're like only 1- 5 years older than Me :) We got to explore the art museum and it was sooo boring ! Hearing the sounds of our 4-5 inch stilettos on the wooden platform as we walk, is much more interesting. Oh, we got to smell some rare scents. Like, Rain, Love, Death, Happiness .. You know, all those. I hated the smell of Death! And I LOVE the smell of Dream & Happiness! It makes you go all bubbly :D OOH OOH! I got to take picture with Haizad Imran! He sang an English Song & Afgan - Bukan Cinta Biasa. HeartMelting! Photos are with Nadya though :\ Not forgetting, Syed Azmir came with His Girlfriend who was apparently Cik Farin's BestF! No offence, sombong : The Kendarats were umm, very very friendly too ;)

I had my first Maths tuition lesson of the year on Sunday. The tuition teacher is Friendly and uses Bombastic words. One word : WOW.

I wasn't as excited for school as i was last year :\ Reasons shall not be stated. But nonetheless, Special People were the reasons why i was a lil' excited for school.

First day of school and the weather wasn't fine :O New form teachers and thank god, they are like, the funny ones and not the biggest merepek bitch tak menjadi teacher! My class is situated at last year's 3.4 though :)

Second day of school was nothing special. Ate at MacDonald's with Siti & Sayyid after school . We were talking about STUFFS. Heh. After that, Me and Siti headed back to school to complete our Chemistry homework together to which Hakim became our Tuition Teacher for a while. Funny! :D

Wednesday was normal.. Siti came over to my house after school for a while to search for Dance moves :) Night time was kinda scary :O *looks down*

Thursday was Our day! But it rained that morning -.- I was all cold, and rushing, so i put on the Pink Cardigan and tied two ponytails to school. Some were kinda shocked when i came in to class :O I Love Whatever Happened After School :')

Had floorball on Friday. I was practically blur the whole day. HEH :D I Love After Floorball :') Whatever that happened, i swear it made my day ;D

Okay, day by day, i find my hair really strange. Last week, it curled - as though i went to perm it1 And now, it's straight. Really straight - as though i went to straightened it! Not my normal Curled In Hair :O Okay, what's wrong with my hair this year!? Do i like, have some magic hair or something ? O.o

I fell asleep again infront of the laptop yesterday night, while chatting with quite a number of people :\ Bad habit when im really exhausted :S

Oh! My jersey number is 14 :B Because 7 & 20 is taken (-.-') and people were like going , "Take 14 laa!" Because JiaYi said " 7 x 2 = 14" and Siti said "Troy Bolton Number!" and another reason not to be stated. I was like ".. okay , 14." HAHA , RATHER THAN BEING STUCK WITH THE NUMBER 4 - COACH HAS CHOSEN FOR ME, RIGHT :) So yeah, Love's expression was "-.- HAHAHA *censored*"

2010-01-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

I failed to be there for you.

You.

2010-01-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

2010

2010-01-01T14:55:00.004+08:00

I've prepared a whole list of new year wishes to my special ones and almost all 310 people on my contact list. Too bad when i send it on ecxactly midnight, it jammed my phone and then it said "Sending Failed."So yeah, i did it like 10 times, and the same thing keep happening so then i gave up and deleted everything. Not sure wether they received it or not :\

Happy 2010 all!
To Siti, hope 2010 will be a blastful journey for the both of us :D
Fazzy, I hope that this year, we'll be closer than last year :)
Hakim, I promise , i'll be a better friend to you. :P
Dee, let's do more crazy stuffs together this year! ;)
Amalia, i hope to share with you more everytime we go to school together! :B
Yina & Joshua i'll miss sitting with you guys in class, not paying attention during lessons and gossiping :D
Rachel, keep on rocking, rockstar! ;)
Most of all, thank you guys for being there for me in 2009, giving me the full support , your funny and heartmelting words of encouragement, you guys just make my day better ;) I love ya'll! ;)
And lastly, Love, just like you said, i hope we'll last. Hope 2010 will be a better year for us. I Love You too! :D ;)

& to the rest, Happy 2010 :) Hope the year ahead will be just as amazing as you are! :D

xoxo;
Suhanna :D

Spanish.

2009-12-31T11:02:00.003+08:00

Tú , que pierdes el control hablando en alta voz, hieres mi corazón. Yo tratando de escuchar no me puedo explicar, que extraña sensación. Tú no me quieres entender, y me mandas a callar diciéndome. No me debo sorprender, porque así es la realidad de nuestro amor y yo, no tengo armas. Para enfrentarte. Pongo mis manos manos al aire. Sólo me importa amarte en cuerpo y alma como era ayer . Tú, que perdiste el control, te dejaste llevar por la inseguridad. Yo que te he visto crecer me puedo imaginar. Que todo cambiará.

Te Amo, Te Amo.

2009-12-31T10:10:00.005+08:00

Click to enlarge.

I was like, WOMG. School ends at 2.15pm next year?Not cool at all. So what time does CCA starts? And what is CLD!? Urgh! Why is our school so irritating?

I woke up to mummy telling me about POA before she headed for work -.- Apparently, the POA teacher of CSS called and told her that if i really want to take it, i'll have to take outside classes but during the examination, i'll be seating for it together with the rest of the POA students. Right now, mummy's searching for my very own POA Home Tutor. Apart from that, i have tuition too! Best part? POA, Maths & Science are taught by three different teachers! O.O

Which means to say, my schedule's gonna be really tight next year :O But that doesn't mean i dont have time for Siti & Love and the rest ;)

-Oh, and if you hadn't realise, you could leave a message for me at the side :)

P.

2009-12-30T20:04:00.003+08:00

A few below are umm, overdued pictures.

BITC pictures.

Baking Industry Training Centre? I forgot.

Jerron with the Hot Apricot Gel on his lips that made it look as though he had lipgloss on ^^

The custards we made.

Too bad the fruits available were only cherries, blueberries, pineapples and peaches.

On the day we had our interview.

Oh we look like some retarded granny.

Photo of the day:

SEVEN!! TUJUH!! SETTE!!

2009-12-30T19:06:00.005+08:00

Okay , let me scream this out first.

I FCUKING WANT JERSEY NUMBER 7, YOU HEAR ME? I DON'T CARE IF SOMEONE TOOK THE NUMBER ALREADY. I WANNA CHANGE WITH HER.

Okay, maybe to everyone it's like , No Big Deal. It's just a number on a shirt that you wear. BUT! When you wear something, you gotta feel satisfied, right? So yeah, i want number 7 on my jersey! I mean, secondary 1, i was given the choice to choose , and i picked 8 because i wasn't too myself. Secondary 2, coach chose for us our jersey number. Mine was 12 and i was like WTH? So now , im very SURE that i want 7. So yeah, i want jersey number 7, i dont care!

Concert.

2009-12-30T09:29:00.002+08:00

Concert yesterday was .. YAY!! *claphands* Danny was drumming like as though he was possessed by some Professional Dead Drummer. No offence, but i never really knew band was that GOOD. I like the ending of the performance though. The one where they stood and sat and stood again. That was cool :)

I love Farhah's Younger Brother! He's like, Cute to the max! Flying kiss, BEN10 shirt!!
- ME: Farhah's brother wore BEN10 shirt!!
Danny: Oh, nak number dier? Farhah ..!
-.-
Back to the story, He knows how to pose to you know! A few minutes before the intermission ended, i was like asking him to pose, and he gave his bestest pose ever! And us girls were like shrieking. Cute. Oh, Danny has a sexy voice now, due to camp ^^

Currently chatting with Sorfina , Vanessa & Feeqah. Realise all are floorballers? That's because we're the lazyasses :D Okay im sleepy. Off to eat breakfast!

I ♥ My SexyDrummerboy.

Abs , Muscles , Packs ; WOMG!

2009-12-29T15:33:00.004+08:00

Morning/Afternoon was tiring. I suddenly realise someone's not bad looking at all ;) FEEQAH KNOWS! FEEQAH KNOWS! Kay, shh.

I've been sleeping kinda early nowadays to which.. it's good! Coz school starts next week :O Im still on a holiday mood though.. oh what the hell.

I've been twitting alot lately :) Read it and you'll find out why :D Alright, im off to find something to wear tonight! :D

It sucks to be short.

2009-12-28T22:04:00.002+08:00

Title says it all :\
You see, abang just came back from Malaysia and he bought me Gums, just like he promised.
Abang: Hug me or Kiss me to get it.
I turned to Sister.
Sister: I dont know ^^
Me:Why dont you do it?

So then you know how tall people nowadays are(!), abang raised his right hand that was full of packets of gums and i was jumping non-stop to get it.
Abang: Cepat, hug me or kiss me to get it.
So then i was staring at the gums , jaw dropped and also thinking of all the possibilities on how i could reach it. I gave up in the end and gave him a quick hug and finally, i got my baby! :D

Dear God,
you see how sad my case is? I wish for a pair of long legs, please!
Girls with long legs are sexy. Even Danny said so! Urgh.

STFU.

2009-12-28T18:56:00.003+08:00

Oh, irritating.

Sezairi won, end of story.

Creating rumours or whatever crap that proves your immaturity can't change the fact that he won and IS the 3rd Singapore Idol Winner. Both Sylvia and Sezairi are talented, i must say, but during yesterday night's performance, Sezairi seriously did better. No, im not saying this because he's a guy and im all for him(-.-) but Seriously, when Channel 5 / HD5 shows the encore telecast of the Singapore Idol Finale, you should watch. If Sezairi CANT SING, how the heck did he get through the auditions , ended up in the final two and became Singapore's 3rd Idol Winner? Plus, if he CANT SING, why is he a musician? Don't bullshit and say he won because of his looks. If people voted for looks, how come Duane last longer than Farhan Shah? Oh, and if it was all about the looks, Faizal Isa could have won,don't you think ? -.- The reason Sylvia didn't win is simple. She didn't have enough votes to top Sezairi. Maybe her supporters were being too complacent, thinking other people would vote for her and stuffs and therefore either didn't vote or didnt vote enough. Well, hey, haven't you heard? Every single vote COUNTS. It's just too bad that Sezairi's fans were all being kiasu that night and voted more than Sylvia's fans.You want change? Well next time,vote more :)

So what if Malay Guys have been the winner for all of Singapore Idol Seasons? This proves that we are capable of at least something, right? What's so bad about that? We aren't producing good results, we dont have that many successful malay people here, like for example scientists, perhaps? Some of them are actually bringing our reputation down. Point is, IF we malays are good at this sort of thing , the least you could do as a Singaporean is to be happy and not go all racist. So much for being a racial harmony country? How come this kind of issue don't come up when we see a Chinese person always representing Singapore in .. say sports?- SEA games or whatever crap. Malays happen to specialise in this kind of stuff . And others specialise in other different things-.- WOMG, is it so hard for you to accept the FACT that Sezairi already won? Haiyo. Yeah, maybe they shouldn't have anymore Singapore Idol because people are too complacent and dont vote enough thus resulting in this kind of stupid problems-.- Still not happy? Rewind the time and vote more, okay?

I can't believe i wrote a post just for this-.- I find it irritating going everywhere online, seeing this kind of matter on almost every page. Like, urgh!! Just vote more laa next time! Wanna make a big fuss out of it for what! You want CHANGE? You jolly well take the initiative for change to happen and not regret it afterwards. Rumours, what can you get from it? HALF OF SEZAIRI's CONTRACT? *rolleyes

Got this from Farhah's tumblr! :)

2009-12-26T22:55:00.004+08:00

Bold what you have. Italicize what you want.
1. A cell phone.
2. A hair straightener.
3. Your own computer.
4. Your own car.
5. Chanel/Dior/Gucci sunglasses.
6. A designer purse.
7. A boyfriend/girlfriend.
8. A curling iron.
9. Every Fall Out Boy CD.
10. Something from American Eagle.
11. Something from Hot Topic.
12. Something from Hollister.
13. Something from Abercrombie.
14. A pet.
15. Some type of trophy/award
16. Full/Queen-size bed.
17. King-size bed.
18. An iPod.
19. Something from a professional team.
20. Ever had more than $100 at a time.
21. Monster, Full Throttle, Amp, Red Bull, etc. in your fridge.
22. Something Green Day.
23. Xanga.
24. Myspace.
25. Makeup.
26. A desk in your room.
27. A hill in your backyard.
28. DDR.
29. A pair of skis.
30. An alarm clock.
31. A pair of ice skates.
32. Rollerblades.
33. A treadmill.
34. Your own phone line.
35. AIM.
36. Yahoo!
37. MSN.
38. ICQ.
39. AOL.
40. Perfume/cologne.
41. Bath lotion.
42. Necklaces and bracelets.
43. A journal/diary.
44. Yogurt and peaches in your fridge.
45. X’s in your screen name.
46. A birthday in September.
47. A famous relative.
48. A relative in a different state.
49. A disowned relative.
50. A relative that lives in Florida.
51. Your own bathroom.
52. Your own band.
53. Any rock band shirts.
54. A guitar.
55. A hammock.
56. A basketball hoop.
57. A soccer net.
58. A bike.
59. An electric scooter.
60. A minivan.
61. A V.C. Andrews book.
62. A friend that does drugs/alcohol/smokes.
63. A locker at school.
64. A baby. (BOO!)
65. Sparkly blue nail polish.
66. A “Vote for Pedro” shirt.
67. The movie “40 Year Old Virgin”.
68. A promise ring.
69. A pool table.
70. A swimming pool/hot tub.
71. Trampoline.
72. Livejournal.
73. Flip flops.
74. Steve Madden shoes.
75. The Sims 2.
76. A ping pong table.
77. An air hockey table.
78. A basement.
79. Converses.
80. Construction paper.
81. Markers, crayons, etc..
82. Coloring books.
83. A nice singing voice.
84. GameCube.
85. Xbox.
86. Playstation.
87. PS3.
88. PSP.
89. Some type of disease.
90. Rose Red movie.
91. VCR/DVD player.
92. A mom or dad.
93. An older brother.
94. An older sister.
95. A younger brother.
96. A younger sister.
97. A sled.
98. A lake/pond/river/ocean near your house.
99. Friends who like you.

I.S!

2009-12-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

"Spit Your Game,

Talk Your Shit."

Speak for yourself, tuls ;)

Whats up with that? -.-

2009-12-26T15:16:00.003+08:00

I get frustrated with people who like to compare their relationship dates and see whose is better. Seriously, i find it unnecessary. Like as though you're in a relationship because of the date itself. Like, wtf? I once had 080808 & 070809, AMCM? -.- I mean, yes , you find your date unique and whatsoever, and you're happy about it, but that doesnt make you one. Date being unique is no biggy, it's your relationship that matters. I swear, if there's gonna be one more person coming up to me going all "You know you know , my date is 061209! Multiple of 3! ONE IN A MILLION!! Cool kan? Bet it's better than yours!"(Kepala otak lu!) imma explode. And , know the difference between Multiple of 3 and Factors of 3? O.O

Guess the reason why im cranky today is because 1) I lack of sleep & 2) I woke up to a unfascinating yet irritating dream. Even the 6 litres tub of Chocolate & Vanilla Ice Cream couldn't push my crankiness away. In short, i woke up on the wrong side of bed. And miraculously, i like the heavy thunderous rain today. Thank You God.

I have learnt to ever never look back and read whatever that is related to some parts of your past because it will just crush you into pieces. Literally. And figuratively. You'll regret because the feeling you get after that , is seriously seriously not important. Like, a waste of your time. But too bad , even thinking that way wont push the feeling away, until you are reassured fully. To which, does it explain about the abnormality on my twitter? Yes.

And again, i feel so abashed for abstaining from this particular GreatFriend i shall say, for he's been there for me , intimes of bad and always giving me the full support. And intimes of good, i dismiss him from my mind. Gosh what kind of a friend am i? A particularly pathetic one. Psh. I promise to be a better friend to you, in 2010, You. Heh :D

I know im abit wols but , i wanna watch Alvin & The Chipmunks 2 ! It's like duperly cute :) And somehow , it reminds me of Fazzy -.- Oh well.

Always come back to you.

2009-12-26T14:51:00.001+08:00

ஐ

2009-12-25T16:10:00.005+08:00

This week has seriously been hectic.
Oh , hello.
Reason i've not been going online and updating much was because laptop was bitching with me. But oh well , even if it wasn't , i wouldn't have the time anyway :)

Tuesday ,
At about 12am , Sister's Love & abg Taufiq came with Pizza! I was like in my short sleeping dress , about to go to Mum's room when Sister suddenly asked to go in, signalling that abg was here-.- So then i went in and waited till i fell asleep :D Hot pizza , wasted! But oh well, i had it for breakfast , YUM!

Had to wake up very early in the morning to help Grandaunt out. I swear both Sister and I were dreading it. Helping out was tiring but i get to know way more about Late Granny which made me miss her more :( When grandaunt was telling me the story and all, i was about to cry but i kept cool . GAHHH . Everything ended at about close to 7pm. Me and Sis went to Loyang Point to meet Mummy up. We waited for her at Macdonald's to which we were too bored that we camwhored with the I'm Lovin' It paper from the Vanilla Cone Ice Cream we ate :P Nothing better to do . Heh. Homed at about 10+. That was when i found out Laptop was bitching with me :O Slept 3 hours later.

Wednesday,
Danny got me cracking up the second i was awake :D I told him to wake me up text me for floorball friendly since my prepaid was low and he couldn't call. I totally forgot about that and placed my phone on the side table. It took him 5 awfully frustrated & funny text to wake me up ;) Then it was my turn to wake Siti up.

We won the friendly match ; 5-4 ! I think i should start going for training regularly already since coach pointed it out to me already :O Ate at Macdonald's with Siti for lunch , homed and then went shopping with Sister :P Homed at night , abg came because he was going to Malaysia the next four days. Can't remember what i did after that .. i only remembered texting Danny for another wake up text .. hmm.

Thursday
"TABUNG AMAL" & "PINKIE"
I woke up early but met them an hour late. From 12/13 of us , only 6 turned up -.- 3 guys and 3 girls , but it was heck loads of fun! Besides the fact that i'm the smallest among them .. There were lots of confusion for our destination . First it was Sentosa , but then Marina Barrage , then Sentosa again . In the end , we went to Marina Barrage to which we bump into our seniors who were also having their Ex-Park Viewan Clique reunion :P Funny. We played at the water playground first . FUN.FUN.FUN. We even sat in the water and played Truth or Dare / Dare or Double Dare. Gosh , the guys were horny , like seriously. Then one of the dares , Ad'li had to kiss Syabil on the cheek. CUTE! And then there are lots more to which it could not be stated or else SOME OF US will be in trouble with our own individual partner :D We were all drenched to the maximum - like as though we went swimming with our clothes. Dried ourselves up and went up to the field area. With the wind blowing wildly , it was freezing cold! Went to Vivo after that to eat at Fig & Olive. We got the trains mixed up on the way and it was like funny because we were running for the train -.- :D

Vivo was extremely packed :O Some wanted to sit outside and enjoy the warmth while some wanted to sit inside and freeze to death . Obviously , second option was the result. I wanted to get the Chicken Pesto Carbonara but Ad'li ordered that (-.-) so i ordered Maghribi Chicken with Olive Rice. The food was awesome & Ad'li fed me! HAHA ;) A small glass of Pepsi alone was $3 :O Bill came in , and everyone was like Jaw-Dropped. $112.99 Inclusive of 10% service charge which was $9.60 and 7% GST , $7.20 . Money, burnED! Ummirah was frustrated to the max :P HAHA.

We took the purple line to Kovan and 81-ed home . Feeqah asyik BUANG ANGIN inside the MRT and Bus till everyone stayed as far as possible from her . HEH. In bus 81 , we were like chatting with each other on the top deck , and i was like texting Danny at the same time when suddenly Ad'li snatched my phone away and ask the rest of the guys to block me . I was like wrestling with them while Ummirah & Feeqah can sit and watch -.- Ad'li was heckishly laughing while i was trying to break the all four hands that were blocking me . Syabil was all like "Ah ! Ah! Tulang kau sakit tajam sia!!" After a while , they gave up , i managed to "wrestle" with Ad'li for my phone and then the guys were suddenly trying to pull me away again. Feeqah said i was like possessed -.- They passed the phone around and i was like frustrated to the max . Ad'li had the phone in the end and he ran a few seats infront . 'Wrestled' with him again till he fell off the seat , head down :O Syabil went " Eh Suhanna , Chill ah!!" Then suddenly the bus driver purposely skidded a stop at the next stop and went up :\ Everyone suddenly sat still , as though nothing happened and then he was like shouting umm .. English words i guess? Whatever it is , he should go back to school and learn english. Primary school as a foundation, perhaps ? *roll eyes* Feeqah recorded a pat of the whole thing :O

Accompanied Feeqah to Tamp Mall to meet her mum . After buying Famous Amos and all , her mum sent me home :) to which i had to wait at the void deck since Mum & Sis wanted to eat out . Went home late , was exhausted by then , slept after washing up.

Today ,
I woke up to Danny's text early in the morning -.- I could have woken up later! Had breakfast then , watched tv and then i fell asleep again . HEH. All the exhaustion .. gosh. Siti , let's go to the spa! HAHA. Didn't get anymore infos about today's supposedly outin with HMT babes , so i assumed it was cancelled. HEH. I couldn't be bothered asking , so WTH right :P

Feeqah suggested bowling for six of us next week . Ooh, i like! :D

I just wanna be happy.

2009-12-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

Ever been at a point where you're about to break down any moment, that tears are already filling up your eyes and you could feel it starting to overflow and that your heart beats faster than usual and you feel a sense of frustration and burning sensation in it because of something and it makes you feel so fcuking useless? Yeah , that's it.
Fazreen, i need you right now.

How important am i to you?

2009-12-21T20:44:00.012+08:00

"Everything About You Catches My Heart."
-Stalker Guy

"People who are jealous of you are insecure individuals who lack at many things and suck at life. You can only pray for people like that hoping they dont fall too hard. They're dying to know your next move, your every move! They secretly live their lives through you ; when they shop they think of the hot shit they saw you in and when they talk to their friends, they use your phrases, they badly want a chance to breathe the same air as you breathe and taste the same food you taste and date the same people you date. They just dont get it. They dont know how you have the ability to be so Hot, Classy , Talented and Sustain personality for days. So they make up rumours about you to help their ego and kill time until they find out your next move. They wonder if you even think of them at times. Can someone die of jealousy? Yes , hopefully they'll die thinking of us bitches, these hoes are jealous of. "

One word , WOW.

& uh ,

Who knew stalker guys could be so, sweet?

Innebandy

2009-12-21T17:36:00.004+08:00

I'm like, very very very disappointed in you.

Floorball was .. very floorball-ish just now. Managed to wake up early & wake up call Siti up though , so YAY me! ;) Oh not forgetting , Godzilla scored 4 goals during gametime today ! :D I really needa work out on my fitness already. So after floorball , we headed to Whitesands and had lunch at Mad Jack :) Delicious! Homed after :D

Grandaunt just called me to ask for me and Sis's help for tomorrow. KACHING! ;) And OMG , i fell asleep infront of my laptop again ! :O That explains why i was ignoring Nadd & Hasanah's Combine Chat , Feeqah and Dee's Individual Chat too! :P This is bad.

I'm packed again this week ! :\ Out to help Grandaunt on Tues , Friendly Match with Cranberra in the morning & Shopping with Sis for Cik Farin's wedding on the afternoon on Wed , Out with 6F&6G'07 to Sentosa on Thurs and Outing with HMT babes on Fri . Like woah . I think on Sat mummy wants to visit Great Grandaunt .. and umm , go to the Cemetery on Sun? Hectic.

I have the sudden urge to go for bowling next week . Hmm , anyone? And GAHHH! I still have yet to fulfill my wish of seeing the sunset :S They say it's beautiful! :(

Okay , im off to watch more of the JONAS :D

20 December.

2009-12-21T01:35:00.004+08:00

It's 12.50am and it's raining , making the weather freezing cold and , nice to sleep!
But right now , i feel that something's different . I feel so suffocated . I feel so bare . I feel so .. not normal .

Today was alright . Went to Arab Street to find Mummy's & Along's clothes and all . At the same point of time , we were surveying on all the cloths for Cik Farin's wedding . Went to Tanjong Katong to find the traditional clothes for Cik Farin's wedding but urgh , none was alright . It's frustrating though! Sis and I are left with a week/two before New Year (weekends) because that's when it is . If it's like at a void deck , i dont mind wearing whatever i have but it's not! Plus , it's a special occasion . HEADACHE! :O

Night was okay i suppose . Well yeah , only something just didn't feel right . Just , weird.

We're all left with a few more days till New Year . Now that's fast!
I hope next year will be a sweet one ;) I guess i better go get some sleep now coz there's floorball tomorrow and i don't wanna miss out on that ;D

awww!

2009-12-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

" Georgia ; You think i'm Perfect ..?

Robbie ; I think you're Mad!,
You're Perfect for me."

Aaron Perry Johnson as Robbie in Angus , Thongs & Perfect Snoggings.

SweetDream.

2009-12-19T12:13:00.004+08:00

We’re gonna make our mistakes ,
Find out how much your heart can take

Yesterday's dream was Candy-Coated Sweetness! :D Lets dream of that again , tonight! ;)
I think out of us 3 , im the only one who doesnt have leg cramps due to .. yesterday:D Well there was a bit, but it didnt stay for long. HEHE.

❤

2009-12-18T20:21:00.001+08:00

"Coz’ I’m still learnin’ the art of love,
I’m still tryin’ to not mess up,
So whenever I stumble Let me know,
You need to spell it out."

2009-12-18T19:44:00.004+08:00

"The shit you hear about me .. might be true .

Then again;

It could be as fake as the bitch who told you."

Art of love.

2009-12-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

ARGH.

2009-12-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

TEN HOW'S:
How did you get one of your scars?
While rollerblading .

How did you celebrate your last birthday?
A mini one.

How are you feeling at this moment?
Frustrated to the max.

How did your night go last night?
Fantab!

How did you do in high school?
Fairly bad.

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Daddy bought it for me.

How often do you see your best friend?
Often.

How much money did you spend last month?
I dont count.

How old do you want to be when you get married?
I dont know.

How old will you be at your next birthday?
15

NINE WHAT'S:
Your mothers name?
Not revealing.

What did you do last weekend?
Attend a fantab wedding dinner.

What is the most important part of your life?
Being Loved.

What would you rather be doing?
I dont know.

What did you last cry over?
Can't remember.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Soothing songs and Chocolates/Candies.

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
Honesty.

What are you worried about?
SOMETHING.

What did you have for breakfast?
I didnt eat.

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Yeah.

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Uhh.

Have you ever been out of the country?
Duhh.

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Yeeaahh.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
HAH , ya.

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
Urgh, no.

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
No.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yeah.

SEVEN WHO’S:
Who was the last person you saw?
Sister.

Who was the last person you texted?
Danny.

Who was the last person you hungout with?
Dee.

Who was the last person to call you?
Mummy.

Who did you last hug?
*roll eyes*

Who is the last person who texted you?
Danny.

Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?
Mummy.

SIX WHERE’S:
Where does your best friend live?
*Stares at the laptop*

Where did you last go?
Macd's.

Where did you last hang out?
Macd's.

Where do you go to school?
Coral.

Where is your favorite place to be?
Cuddling my pillows on my bed with cold air blowing everywhere.

Where did you sleep last night?
In my room , on my bed.

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
Do you like someone right now?
*roll eyes*

Do you think anyone likes you?
*Stares blankly *

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Use to. Not anymore.

Do you know the muffin man?
No i dont.

Does the future scare you?
Yeah.

FOUR WHY’S:
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
Because im not bestfriends with other people's bestfriends .

Why did you get a myspace?
Fun.

Why did your parents give you the name you have?
Because they want to.

Why are you doing this survey?
Because im frustrated and tryna take my mind off things.

THREE IF’S:
If you could have one super power what would it be??
Read people's mind.

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
Don't know.

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
Something that will ensure my survival.

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
*roll eyes*

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
*stares blankly into space*

ONE LAST QUESTION
Are you happy with your life right now?
Not this instance . Everything seems to irritate me.

First & Last.

2009-12-17T21:52:00.003+08:00

The Firsts...
1. First real best friend
Hajjahratu

2. First school
PAP ^^

3. First cell phone
Nokia something something .. can't remember :P

4. First funeral
Late Great Grand Uncle .. i think

5. First pet
a FISH! hahaha :P

6. First big trip
Overseas when i was a baby?

7. First fight
Oh , when i was young , with my sister , obviously :)

8. First celebrity crush
Joe Jonas. HAHA.

9. First time out of the country
When i was a baby.

10. First job
NONE -.-

11. First car
Too young.

12. First myspace friend
I dont know?

And The Lasts...
13. Last person you hugged
^^ :D

14. Last car ride
Um , last weekend

15. Last time you cried
LONG LONG TIME AGO :D

16. Last movie you watched
Grudge 2 - Online.

17. Last food you ate
PIZZA! ;)

18. Last item bought
A Pen .

19. Last shirt worn
Kappa Singlet.

20. Last phone call
From Mummy :)

21. Last text message
From DEE! :P

22. Last kiss
From FAZZY! via MSN ;) Hehh.

23. Last thing you touched
The keyboard on the laptop.

24. Last funeral
Late Granny's

25. Last time at the mall
Yesterday.

26. Last time you were excited for something
JUST NOW. HEHEHE.

27. Last person you saw
Pizzahut Delivery Man.

28. Last thing you drank
Ice water.

29. Last person that broke your heart
Ahhhh.

30. Last time you were really honestly happy
Honestly , most of the time . So if it's last time then it's just second ago.

17 december.

2009-12-17T19:16:00.002+08:00

Met DEE today and did umm , something :D Was at MCd's when we saw Najwan , Ashraf , Shawn & Ashwin . Plus , Kelvin How works there too! Cool ^^ The thing that me and Dee did was hell-ish ! But nevertheless , we were able to finish 3/4 of it . DEE brought home the thing because by that time , it was already 6.20+ and i had to head home . I saw Stalker Guy on the way back and i was panicking like hell . But i managed to keep my cool , HAHA. Creeeeeepy :\

2009-12-16T18:17:00.002+08:00

I lost $$$ :O

Anyway today was awesome :D Minus the part where i ditched godzilla again . HEH. Ah gosh , i really hope tomorrow nye baking plan with Amalia & Dee jadi :D I just remembered i have floorball -.- Urgh.

sisterhood

2009-12-16T02:31:00.002+08:00

2.31am & im still awake! :D

I just finish helping sis out though .. Coz it's somewhat her big day tomorrow .. meeting all her loved ones , abang and all . So yeah , im sucha nice sister ;) AHEM SELF PRAISE.

YAY TOMORROW! :D

LOVEEEEEEE!

2009-12-15T23:55:00.008+08:00

HAHAHAH! Syafiq has turned way FlIRTATIOUS.

mampos kau ..

Currently chatting with Ad'li & Syafiq :P

Oh wait , Ummirah just joined us! YAY! Primary School Re-union Convo .

HEH . Funny to the max! Ad'li & Syafiq with their Malboro .. Red wine .. Gang Bang -.- .. Sentosa .. Mummy's boy .. PRP too far(inside joke) .. CHICKEN SEAWEED NUGGET. HEHE. Oh , miss those times when we played catching :D We're having a reunion next week! YAY! Aww guys , let's play catching , kay? HEH. Can't wait!

EH SYAFIQ "B" APE "B" AH? Alamak-.- Peyh Irritating .

There's so much time.

2009-12-15T22:26:00.004+08:00

^^ Wow , this person officially thinks imma good kisser! Have i kissed you before ? o.O

HAHA.

I cleaned up all my books just now and gosh! i found lotsa things that made me smile :) From the paper full of dirty stuffs written by Me and Joshua .. to Yina's frequent cute drawings to make my day in school awesome .. to that thing i drew that hurts your pair of eyes .. to god knows what else coz i forgot ! :D I miss sitting at the back with Joshua & Yina ! The gossips .. chit-chats .. little childish fights .. ahh, those times :P

Looking through my English file , it makes me hate Farah more. HAH:)

GOSHHH. You piss me off sometimes :@

"I want you to kiss me." - Bella

Get well soon, Love.

lazyass.

2009-12-15T12:45:00.004+08:00

"What would my mama do , if she knows about me and you?"

Didn't go for PT today :P As usual .. woke up late . Despite several texts from several people telling me to wake up and go PT. HEHE :D I think i should stop being a lazyass ;)

Arrivederci.

^^

2009-12-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

how abt 777?

2009-12-14T17:49:00.002+08:00

ooh , 5.55pm! Cool . I've been spotting all this weird time . Like for example , i spotted 1.11am & 3.33am just now and i woke up at 12.34pm . What's up with all that ? O.O

Missed floorball training today coz i didn't wake up ^^ Not my fault ! Oh , Godzilla , get well soon! Like finally i'm done with Hayati's Blog :P It took me about 2 hours . HEHE. Imma be a goodgirl and attend PT tomorrow .. :D Hopefully i can wake up :) to which i doubt so.

Can you hear me?

2009-12-13T21:56:00.006+08:00

^^Haikal.

He's gonna be in the same class as me next year! So that makes him the only person who is the same as me! In class 2 for as long as we're in Coral . 1/2 , 2/2 , 3/2 .. 4/2 . YAY us! HAHA ;)

Luh , Syafiq suruh plan 6F&6G '07 outing plak -.- I swear this future pornstar is irritating ! Ummirah darling , if you're reading this , call me up kay? :D

Hey Love, imy.

:P

2009-12-13T01:48:00.003+08:00

Danny Or Ben? ^^

Friday's photo! :) Aww , don't i look taller than her ? :) I WISH!

I had the I STUDIO balloon too you know! Only i accidentally let go of it and up it flew to GODKNOWS where :D Siti's one didnt fly off because she tied the string to her ring ! Anyway , now , both of our hairs are off the same length! ^^ We're kinda competing , eyh ? :P

Can't wait for Thursday's baking with DEE & AMALIA! I think ..
Well hopefully the plan goes !

Aku SUKA!

2009-12-12T21:52:00.005+08:00

Dinner @ Sengkang Riverside Park

Totally loved it! The park was big and beautiful . Ii pranzo era completamante grande! The atmosphere was .. romantic, seriously! Breezy , sunset , calm , soothing songs. The food was OHMYGOD finger lickin' good! There was like .. cheesecake , sushi , marble brownie , lemon cake , Corn dessert .. and lots more! I mean , besides all the Traditional Food for main course. There was Caesar Salad too ! But what made it amazing was , there was a popcorn & cotton candy stand! ^^ Plus mocktail stand . Me love! It was situated at the corner of the park and while i was eating other foods , the smell of it totally made me drool! So yeah , after eating , Me , Eimran and Sis went to the cotton candy stand and get ourselves one each ^^ It was BIG! :D After that , we took a packet of popcorn each! ^^I like.

So after eating and all , we were just sitting around , chatting when Eimran suddenly went to the Mocktail stand . We weren't sure it was a mocktail stand at first because 1) it wasn't opened yet & 2) they had black tins which looked like beer :P Obviously i was shocked when Eimran went there . Thought he wanted to drink and get drunk or something -.- But nyehh , found out it was a mocktail stand . Followed sis to get a Blueberry one then . The colour combination was so cool , i swear! ^^ I was the only good girl who didn't get one and drank fruit punch instead :D HEHE.

There was one part , when i wanted to drink Sister's mocktail , i was struggling to drink through the straw because she lifted the Glass high and was talking to Mum & Aunt. Uncle saw me struggling and signalled to her. It took her quite a while to understand -.- Then everyone chuckled. Pft. The gift that they gave to visitors (berkat (sp?)) was a packet of popcorn! How cute was that !? ^^ Everything was perfect! Like seriously , it's what almost everyone dream of.

So, on the way back home , in the car ..

Eimran ; Mine's gonna be at the pizzahut! Cheap and easy!

Uncle ; McDonalds is cheaper!

Eimran ; Oh yeah! Then kids will receive Happy Meal Toys ..

Uncle ; And the father of the groom will wear Clown Costume .

(Everyone LOL-ed to this:P)

Me ; Don't forget balloons!

Eimran ; YEAH! And everyone will be eating Mcdonald's food :)

HAHAHA , My wedding will be on a cruise , with gumball machines , cotton candy , popcorn & Honey melts stand , Chocolate Fondue , Lotsa Strawberry Coated Chocolate! ,GummyBear , SWEETS & Chocolate corner , Cocktail / Mocktail stand , Cupcakes with icing! , lotsa desserts & food from all over the world ! Balloons & Bubbles blown everywhere . Just the right music , breey weather , calm sea .. Oh , and the cruise will set off just in time to watch the sunset . Ahh , i like i like! ^^

When i look at you.

2009-12-12T14:50:00.002+08:00

The Guy Is CUTE! ^^

Wherefore art thou Romeo?

2009-12-12T00:24:00.003+08:00

I was randomly browsing through all my holiday photos and i found this. It's during Hayati's Sweet 16 ^^ I find the picture kinda cool though .. The picture look like we're tryna give some support to the Rockstar in the middle , especially Siti! :P Oh those times . Rachel was actually playing the guitar with the last string broken because some people broke it! ^^ Awesome \m/

Okay , i can't sleep.

..

2009-12-11T21:48:00.003+08:00

Now this is funny.
I actually fell asleep while using the laptop. This is so cool! -.-
My head was infront of the screen , on the pillow , eyes shut , soul in DreamLand.
Well yeah , i was sleeping soundly .. not until DEE had to suddenly chat with me . The sound woke me up ! But one way or another , thank god ! ^^ Shows how much badly i need to sleep soon. Kay , now im eating chocolate bread ^^

HILARIOUS!

2009-12-11T20:46:00.001+08:00

uoy kucf

2009-12-11T20:26:00.005+08:00

You're so fcuking irritating , do you know that ?

Life's not all about studying , studying and studying.

Neither is it about having the bestest girlfriends , bestfriend , goodfriend , Boyfriend.

Also not about partying , tonning , having fun , clubbing.

What life's all about , is how you live it .

So stop bothering about my life and start to bother yours' instead.

Gimme a chance to lead a life of my age , like how you did few years ago .

URGH.

Today was awesome :D Well duhh , spent with Siti. Thanks for everything eh Babe ;) Sayang Kamu! HAHAHA :D

Let's PMS like a Bitch.

2009-12-11T11:36:00.004+08:00

HELLO.
Currently waiting for Siti to get ready -.- Suppose to meet her at 11am but she woke up at that time. Bravo! I just realise i've been out the whole of this week & I lack of sleep. And aww , Fazzy!'s like the only person who went "Since it makes you happy." I'm so touched! HAHAHA ^^ I wonder if GODZILLA is done geting ready ..
Oh well.

Tidak Jumpa Langsung ? NONONO!

your heartbeat.

2009-12-11T02:28:00.005+08:00

"I wanna be wrapped up tightly in your arms ."

HI , i can't sleep.

You know im referring to you.

2009-12-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

SEE! I had to hold Siti's hand to go underwater because i was afraid i would drown because i don't know how to swim . Okay , hush.

Cough's getting worse . Actually , it's paining my throat. Urgh. Do they have a specific name for this?

Oh,YOU. I'm proud of YOU:) Thank You.

I like it when you hold my hand when we walk.

2009-12-10T18:46:00.005+08:00

"Before you point fingers ,

Make sure your own hands are clean."

There was floorball today , which was from 9am to 12pm .Woke up late , as usual . But i missed PT only - Thank God! Because when i arrived at the ISH , Siti & Jaslyn were on the way out . Both wasn't well so i figured that PT was hard on them :P So instead of going for training straight , i followed them down ^^ Sat & Chatted in the canteen as though we didnt have training to attend :P But we went back up during the first waterbreak. Training wasn't great . Ahem , coming from a girl who hasn't been attending training for GODKNOWS how long :)

After training is what i feel guilty for . - I told Siti i would follow her to the bank but then i .. bailed her off and went to eat at Downtown with Danny instead. Sorry GODZILLA! After that we walked to DEE's block coz i badly wanted to meet her ^^ It was FUNNY! Oh DEE, you're sucha BL (inside joke) ^^ Not forgetting Danny & Dee bullied me too :( Against pink eh? ^^ We didn't allow DEE to go home for a while :D But then i pitied her ;) & Also because Danny wanted to Slack at 566. Oh DEE , i swear the voice you heard at the carpark was Danny's & not mine!

Walked all the way there and gosh! Not tryna say what but there were LOTSA Banglas -.- Danny got to talk to his friends and all then he sent me home. And now , i have more cramps than before :(

~~Truly , i love the 3 of you . And i appreciate what you guys are doing to protect me. Really i do. But sometimes, i just wish that none of you are against each other. You know , Happy People.~~

DEE babe , trust me on this kay?

:)

2009-12-09T19:15:00.005+08:00

MENTEL GIRLS.

" Hi , kite due pompan miang *wink

Awak sungguh hot skali.

Boleh knal knal ? *winkwink "

Okay no , kidding ! Remembering the conversation i had with Siti about this photo , it kinda cracked me up :D Oh , and the paragraph ontop , it's not true. Seriously. Also because i dont wanna die ah ;)

Helped Grandaunt out today :) Surprisingly ! And then met Danny after that and then homed. Sucha bore :(

" Because Feeqah and I have a dream . A dream to last forever . "

Not my speech but Dann's. Sucha an ass . See Feeqah , your boyf told me that when you were away . Now it's stuck in my head -.- Thanks eh korang. Buat selalu.

Please sleep , Please sleep , Please sleep.

2009-12-09T02:34:00.006+08:00

" I gotta take a little time

A little time to think things over

I better read between the lines

In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain

I don't know if I can face it again

Cant stop now, Ive travelled so far

To change this lonely life "

Urgh , it's 2.47 am now and i can't get to sleep :( Oh wait , cool! There's 7 in it ! This is seriously , not fun. I'm lethargic and my eyes badly wanna shut but my soul isn't gonna enter DreamLand. Guiltyness is still haunting me though :(

This reminds me. I gotta go get a long sundress for Sentosa's outing that Siti's gonna plan for HuiYi & Annabel's birthday celebration - real soon. Gosh, it ain't fun when you're KachingLess during the holidays. >:O

Mom won't allow me to join boxing with Siti :( But anyway babe, Hayati's there too! Have fun boxing eyh ? ^^ I may not have the opportunity to learn Self-Defence with you, but imma make sure i do self-learning and then one day, we could Box each other and then go cari pasal with other people, aites? HEHE ;)

2.57am now. Does time really pass that slowly ? I'm so jealous that sister's on the phone with GODKNOWSWHO right now. Makes me wanna talk on the phone with any kind soul so ever badly, right this instance. Nahh , i think it's time to force myself to sleep now :O

aku rindu kamu.

Your warmth & your hugs.

WWW.

2009-12-08T21:16:00.003+08:00

WILD WILD WET

Woke up at about 12.45pm and this GODZILLA pestered me to go to WildWildWet with her and her Lil' sis. Though i said NO , she said her Lil' sis was begging her , she won't go unless i go and that she told her mum already . SMART EH. So yeah , i couldn't afford to say NO -.- By the time i said YES , it was 1.03pm and she wanted to meet at 1.30 pm . 27 minutes to shower and pack!? Nahh , i came an hour later than the meeting time :D She knows me too well :) We got changed and yeah , had FUN. We took ULAR-Lah twice ^^ That meant getting to see the hot lifeguard , Twice :D and yeah , we screamed :P The second time we were on it , the family that joined us , was NO FUN . When we screamed , they were like literally staring at us , uh , shocked ? -.- So we went like almost everywhere . And not forgetting , Siti had her embarassing moment too! ^^ HEHE. I know you know eh GODZILLA? Siti's lil' sis made me go with her this ride .. i forgot the name .. but well , the ride that's like .. at the skate park ? Only this ride , it's waterISH and you take a float for two people and then FROM UP TO DOWN TO UP TO DOWN TO UP TO DOWN. And when that happened , it's the same feeling as JUMPING DOWN FROM A VERY HIGH BUILDING and like .. your heart's gonna come out soon . I'm not gonna take that with a small kid , ever again ! But yeah , overall was fun :)

PREPAID's LOW :( I FEEL SO SO SO SO BAD :( GOD . Imma miss you know i know.

:( :( :(

Urgh.

2009-12-08T19:49:00.005+08:00

I thought life would be so so so much easier , but guess i was wrong .

Come on , what's so hard about You Know I Know ?

Thanks , im an idiot . I know.

He came back into my life .

2009-12-08T12:59:00.004+08:00

070809 is back ;)

Me <3 Danny .

So now , can i please get some peace when i go online , guys ?

Watcha say lyrics , edited :D

2009-12-07T00:30:00.003+08:00

Watcha say , that you only meant well ? Watcha say that it's all for the best ? I was so wrong for so long . Only trying to please myself . I was caught in your lust , when i dont really want noone else . So no i know i should've treated you better . But me and you were meant to last forever . So let me in , give me another chance - to really be your girl . Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out , i just didn't know what to do . I'll do anything for you . How could i live with myself knowing that i let our love go ? And oh , when i do with one chance , i just gotta let you know . I know what i did wasn't clever but me and you were meant to be together . Boy , tell me watcha said , i dont want you to leave me . Though you caught me cheating , tell me watcha said . I really need you in my life cause things aint right , boy .

YAY ME!

2009-12-06T20:52:00.005+08:00

I was looking at Cik Farin's wedding invitation card for next year ..

Me ; WOAH . This is by far , the
most coolest wedding invitation card i've ever seen ! Next time , mine's gonna
be like PDA!
Mom ; HAHA , yeah
right!
Me ; Mom , when Sis gets married ,
don't have to order all these fancy invitation cards .
Mom ; Why ?
Me ; Just get her a STICK IT memo
pad . It's cheaper and it also saves the earth ;) Plus , you get to invite way
more people :P
Mom ;Haha , You're so
mean!

Okay , don't get it ? Nevermind :P
Yay! I'm going out tomorrow ! :) with BI ;)

Why don't we ?

2009-12-05T23:42:00.003+08:00

Why don't you and i get together ? Take on the world and be together forever .

eh eh BI! ;P

2009-12-05T16:18:00.002+08:00

I feel like a pig today .
Woke up at about 1.30pm and then straightaway , i watched some videos online.
Little did i realise that one of Sister's girlfriend was here (-.-) So she saw how i looked like when i just woke up , she saw the state i was in before bathing , she saw me wrapped in a towel - after bathing and i think she saw my crazily painted nails :O Basically , she saw how uncivilised i was today . TskTskTsk. Ooh , it's 4.22pm . 22 minutes ago , i just finished a relaxing bath . HAHA. Kay , i'm hungry . Imma garb something to eat .. OMG , i really am acting stupidly like some pig today :O Help ?

I feel like a prisoner locked up in a cell.

2009-12-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

HI.

I thought the rain was on my side , but turns out it wasn't .

Now im stuck at home , watching all the episodes of Hannah Montana Season 3.

Oh Well .

BYE.

woahh.

2009-12-04T13:12:00.002+08:00

Found this on Facebook .

Isn't it ironic ? We ignore the ones who adore us , adore the ones that
ignore us , love the ones who hurt us and hurt the ones who love us .

boleh naik gila tak keluar.

2009-12-04T12:49:00.002+08:00

HEHE.
YESSA , rain ! Now you people can jolly well stay at home and feel my misery felt for a week :)
Nothing to do ? Sit and stare at the computer ! That's what i've been doing since i fell sick . HAH , it's not the end of the world! ^^

Ever tried eating Barley ? It's nice and chewy and tasteless . Exactly the kind of food you eat when your immune system is undergoing repair works :) I ate it all night yesterday . And i think imma eat it again :D Don't worry , im superbly fine . Once the repair works are done , imma go out and enjoy like nobody's business ! HEHE.

Okay , i like the rain and i want it to stay . But i hate the thunderstorms! Please go away ?
Under Siti's recommendation , i watched IM NOT SINGLE online . Yeah , it was shown the other time , but i missed it though . Babe , be prepared ^^ Imma shower you with all my thoughts of the show! xD Oh , The Proposal is not bad too .. The guy is HOT! :D Now i recommend everyone to watch *wink

AKU NAK KELUAR.

I think imma go meditate now . Kan dah ter-influence!